NUS Law finally got back to me two days ago, denying me entry. And a day later, SMU Law called to ask what were the chances that I'd accept their course, and I promptly rejected them. It's like a food chain. I'm slightly relieved, cos that means I won't have to agonise over yet another difficult decision.

So that brings two years of wondering about the future to a close, and it was all pretty much decided within the span of a month. I remember the long walks from my unit to FDS and looking at the sky and wondering what my friends overseas were up to. Then I'd feel a sense of dread wash over me at the prospect of studying Life Sci under MOE. It's not so much Life Sci (I dislike the course structure) as MOE, cos I wasn't getting a very good impression of the organisation from their disastrous admin and HR department. In the end, deadlines proved to be the best motivator, and it feels good now to have a bit of certainty in my life.

In the meantime, my stint at IBN is ending in two weeks. When I first came in I was cursing myself for making a bad decision - now I'm glad I made that decision and I don't want to leave. I met a great bunch of people here, but I just know I'm probably going to leave it all behind in September. Going overseas, from what I've observed, separates the friends from mere acquaintances. I have 3 months to invest in the relationships that I treasure and hedge them against the degenerating effect of distance.

glitch

Today Soon msged saying that he's no longer going to London with me. Dampened my spirits a lot, cos I was counting on him to be that one close friend to be there with. For a while I was teetering on uncertainty again but I suppose the show must go on. This means a lot more than just me gambling ten years of my life - I'm not doing this only for myself. Problem is, I'm not sure whether it should.

mission accomplished!

Today was very nice. Started with the SMU Law interview, which was rather short, then lunch with my parents at a restaurant in People's Park that employs ex-convicts. Attempted to run 10 click on the track in the afternoon, but gave up at 7.6k. Body needs more conditioning.

Evening was outing with Mr Pink (for want of another name) at New York^2. We ordered the Yankee Burger and were duly informed that there was this challenge thing where if an individual manages to finish the whole thing fries and all then the burger's on the house. We passed on that one, and were content with a quarter of the 8-inch burger each.

When the staff approached our table with a birthday cake I was genuinely surprised..I mean I sort of suspected something when Lari whispered to Cerlyn before leaving the table but when they came back i just forgot the whole thing. Anyhow it was a lovely mango cake! And Rayner brought his big big camera to take photos of the whole thing. Such awesome people.

irony

If you were wondering why I deleted the last couple of posts, it's because they were regarding a particular scholarship, and blogs aren't a safe place to discuss it. Let's call it Scholarship A.

The last two weeks have been pretty surreal. Two months ago I didn't dare dream that I'd ever get Scholarship A, and now here I am on the brink of rejecting it.

I also just got into NTU's Accountancy & Biz double degree programme, something else that I didnt think I'd get. I must say I'm having quite a bit of luck with my applications this year - a stark contrast from when I bombed the Firefly, Medicine and MOE interviews. Alright so it wasn't completely luck - reading up on a bit of psychology and body language probably did help.

Tomorrow's going to be the last of the interviews for this year - I hope! SMU Law. Not that a whole lot hinges on it, but since I've paid $10 to apply I might as well go.
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Chick Corea trading piano shred licks with a Japanese jazz pianist. The most amazing thing I've seen in a while: